cycles

Sought after or longshot
even the music deepens the wounds i have
damaged skin, heart
my eyes bleed tears
people that surround
are oblivious
i wince at the lack of observation
(existing to make me look better than the norm)
i am amazed at the simplicity of the minds
like ant their thought are driven by only a few purposes
I am SO hungry and yet i diet
i wish to lose
i will win
the movies, videogames
i dance, i dance, i dance
up to the rhythmn
snap to the beat
some beat
any beat please
i am tormented
<sigh>
i need to find an order
a line in the grass
not unlike a snake
weaving throughout yet
still solid, graceful
warm
blood, sweat, tears
caught in a web
spun by desire
twisted hearts and minds grip me
my sexuality peaks while others falls
my drive
my patience dwindles
and lacks
breathing - caught again
i grasp you
and yours
for a moment
twice
parted linger
tormented by an ego
solid I long for something chaotic


R. David Paine III
10/30/96
All Hallows Eve